6:57 p.m. - September 27, 2005
Australia
Horrible, no good, very bad day. I think I'll move to Australia.
I think I'm PMSing. It's getting worse and worse each month. Not just the emotional part but the physical as well. I'm achy all over and bloated and nauseated too. I seem to get some GI upset with it which seems totally unrelated, but who knows. It's days like these that I can't even tell I'm taking Lithium. I snapped at one of my co-workers today and feel kind of bad about it. She was trying to tell me in a subtle way that I could do my job more efficiently. I quietly flew off the handle and went to the break room to "difuse" the bomb. Just don't tell me how to better do my job. I work for fricken peanuts in a position that has no "processes" in place and probably never will. I am constantly interrupted while trying to complete one task with either the damn doorbell (yes we have a doorbell in our office) or the phone then I forget what I was doing. I could go on for pages about my job responsibilities and how they don't pay enough and how they expect too much, but I won't. Suffice it say that I don't want to fucking hear it. I show up everyday, put on my plastic smile and act like I love to be there.
I'm moving to Australia.
Husband had a kidney stone attack on Saturday morning at about 3am. Oh lucky me. We're not starting the day off good, Dear. They gave him some Dilaudid and he was happy. As far as I know, he hasn't passed but one of the 3 yet. Teeny tiny little thing. What the hell was he moaning about? Try driving a freight train through the eye of a fricken needle buddy. Can't wait to get the bill for that one. Sucks having no health insurance on a spouse who say's "He never get's sick". Man I wish I had the ability he does to see into the future about such things. Too late now, open enrollment was 2 weeks ago and I didn't include him. Hell, I'd owe my employer at the end of the month had I added him on. Sunday he woke up as the devil and we haven't spoken since. I guess that's what I get for taking care of my man, huh? Orge.
I am in dire need of a new page. Anyone interested?
I'm off to back my bags for Australia.
Oh, and Anaheim, if you're reading. Drop me a line you big loser.
